Our baby is gone. Today, the ultrasound showed no heartbeat and my heart broke in two.
We felt her move yesterday, so we think she left us within the last 24 hours. We knew this day was likely to come, but it still doesn't make it actually being here any easier.
We had a wonderful 28 weeks with her and we are so grateful for the time, but we are so, so sad she is gone.
We have a name for her. We we have had a name for her since she was conceived. We just didn't want to share it, not even on here, until she was born. We have always said that with any of our children, no one gets to know their names until they are born, and we wanted it to be the same with her. Well, today her soul was born to heaven, and so today I want to share her name.
Elisa Josephine
Elisa - This was always our name for our first baby girl (and since we didn't know if Luca was a boy or a girl, we chose a more androgynous name for "her") Elisa is a mixture of Mr V's mom's name Elsa, with my mom's middle name, Alice. It also means consecrated to God, which now means more than we ever though it would.
Josephine is the american translation of my Italian middle name, and was also my great grandmother's first name (the Italian translation)
Today was a very hard day, but we know the next few days are going to be hard too. We went home after our appointment to gather our things, and make some phone calls, but now we are back at the hospital, and they are going to start to induce me. They think the process could take anywhere from a day to several days. So now we wait for our baby to be born. Born after her death, which just symbolizes how much of this whole situation is backwards and upside-down.
Please pray for us and our sweet Elisa
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